Your guiding Light shines within. Always trust your internal guide to show you the right thing to do, the right next step. While you may feel that you have been "failing" externally at times, in fact a whole "outreach" program is being set into place. And how can you tell? Look around. And how did this "reading" come your way?
It is your own cherub angels cheering you on. Telling you to go for it, to believe in yourself. You are a Light in a dark world at times. You walk on faith my friend and it is making a holy difference. As you continue to walk in the Light and uplift others, you show them the way. Not because your life has been so easy, but because external circumstances never made you part ways with your Light. You could have easily given up at any number of roadblocks, stopping points if you will, but you elected to "press on". There are others in your midst, some who you don't know, are not personally even aware of but are connected to you, soul to soul- who have heard your "clarion call". You have made a "believer" out of them due to your tenacity to Truth, to always shine your light and believe in the promise of a new tomorrow. Self love is essential and is growing day by day. Sometimes, in times of doubt it is most important to stop, to pause and to take delight in who you are becoming, how you are maturing on a soul level. You see? The angst of the world, it is just a temporary "angst". What will be revealed in Heaven is the true nature, the true character development and this my friend you are receiving an A+. So keep holding your head high, keep your face to the sunshine. Grace comes upon those that wait for the Lord. You my dear are growing in grace day by day. You are learning how to seek inner guidance, inner strength and lean not on the "outer" temptations of life. While we know you would like some "instant" successes in the world, it is the inner man that you are developing, learning about day by day. It is an en"rich"ing experience that will give you many "pennies" in heaven, we assure you.